Forgotten former Orlando Pirates playmaker Nhlakanipho Ntuli has made a shocking claim regarding his stint at Free State Stars.
Ntuli was tipped for superstardom when he broke through in the Pirates youth teams after signing a five-year contract in 2014 with Dutch side FC Twente, who were coached by former England manager Steve McClaren at the time.
The former national under-20 star, who now plays in Poland for Sportis Lochowo, sat down for an exclusive interview and explains why he failed to make an impact in six months at Free State Stars.
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"I can't say I failed in the PSL, I didn't get enough chance to play there. I think when the chance came I was not ready mentally," Ntuli tells KickOff.com.
"I was still confused by returning from overseas. The chance came at the wrong time when I was still confused and struggling but I can't say I've failed in the PSL.
"The timing was not good and for now I would like to stay in Europe for a long time. I'm not thinking about returning to the PSL."
The 24-year-old, who spent almost three years without a club after lasting a year-and-a-half into his five-year contract with Twente, makes the shocking claim that the move back home almost destroyed his life.
"That was a mistake I made, going back to South Africa, that was the biggest mistake of my career. It almost cost my life, so I will never make that mistake again," he says.
"For me to stay longer here is a second chance in life. I'm more wise and alert so I can't go back to the PSL and I don't want to talk to anybody about a possible move. I want to retire from this side."
'Nana' is aware that some will think he is bitter but says it is bigger than that, and one day when he is ready he will talk about what really happened when he came back.
"I can go anywhere in Europe as long as I don't return to the PSL," he stresses.
"My whole life has to be based here, I can't go back to the PSL. I regret that decision my bro, it was a learning curve and you can't be burned by the same flame twice, you must learn.
"I know people will think I'm bitter or I failed but I think that was a learning curve for me."